New girl... again

TODAY, I woke up homesick. Not sure how that exactly works because Australia is my home now but I felt a tad on the off side.

Although I've been surprisingly fine upto now, I've been told the UK heartstrings inevitably pull - regardless of how many tens of thousands of miles they have to stretch. But they do. And especially at this time of year.

I've said it before and I'll say it again but I really can't get my head around the fact that Christmas is just a matter of a few weeks away. When we're experiencing blistering heats of 35C, I'm in no frame of mind to put together a wishlist for Santa or even buy Christmas cards. For the past 40-odd years, my brain has been trained to celebrate the Noel in temperatures hardly failing to get off zero but here I am, in a hot and drowsy state, trying to put some sort of order into organising our first Aussie festive season.

To be honest, I'll be quite happy to just sit back and let it happen but half of me thinks I should be planning things to keep us busy and our minds on track. Although there will be countless thoughts of how things are without us on the other side of the globe, we have to take stock of what we have and look to the future.

We have two lives running parallel to eachother now. A life with fond memories that will never diminish. Another really new and fresh one in which we're learning all the time. It is enough to monkey around with our brains and emotions but us Pommies are made of sterner stuff ... well, I thought that until this morning.

I feel a little unsettled and I'm putting it down to starting a new job and all the mixed sort of feelings that that brings. In my new role as an allocations consultant at a nursing agency, I feel awkward.

This environment is a fast paced one and I'm constantly being told that I'll grasp the nettle soon enough. I simply hate being the new office girl but really can't think of a nicer place to be the rookie.
The staff and it's bosses are fantastic people and from an outsider looking in, I get the feeling they really look after everyone. And that speaks volumes. Loyalty works both ways and that's why I think I'm missing Leader-land so much.

Almost 17 years under my newspaper belt and no wonder I'm feeling jaded. Ever since I got here, I've been craving getting settled into a job I look forward to going to.

And here, I think I might have found it...